my thursday being sooo beautiful is dependent to my mom's love.
SHE took out everything in my room.
from my clothes wardrobe to my bedsheets to the tiny bit of furnitures in my room, cleaned, changed, hanged nicely, till i got my comfort again in my nest.
sometimes, it's really hard not to think i want to earn so much more and repay my parents back. though loads of bickering and they do not want to support me to Uni, i still think i love them alot. i'm just being me, and i dont know why i am so attached to them. like i've always been independent all my life. i've always acted as if i dont need their care or concern, acted as if i am strong through everything.
but i believe it's a process.
and i believe it'll make me stronger!
i've been looking around in my room and i realized i have everything else then the things people have in their rooms like:
AIRCON? (OMG?! yes i DO NOT HAVE ANY AIRCON in my room)
STUDY TABLE? (yes i told my dad to get rid of it that day that year, for my QUEEN SIZE BED)
TV? (roar, now i cant play xbox in my room, im being greedy again.)
WHATEVERS. i've got my RADIO(:(: AND my LAPPY. WHATSOEVER.
i am so happy about my radio. u do not know how engaged i am with the radio. ask me about the latest hits, u'd lose a million bucks betting on anyone else but me. HAHAHAHAHAHA.
oh oh, i have been buying like 50bucks of magazines a month,
I REALIZED. i am so addicted to reading magazines,
there's like the magazines i organized under each month,
and i realized 50bucks ON AVERAGE.
GOODNESS ME. I AM MAD.
i've got one 2 spoilt phones and one spoilt camera in my room.
i cant imagine how plainly lazy i was just to get it fixed when it WAS still on guarantee. now what? cry looking at them ! what else? lol.
i am freaking still addicted to MAC products.
i tested my love for it again at SEPHORA ion that day.
argh, it's disgusting how i was amazed at the total damage.
and the limited edition MAC brushes, is killing me.
I HAVE TO STOP ALL THESE SHIT IF I WANT TO PAY FOR MY SCHOOL FEES.
MAYBE I SHOULD RE-FOCUS MY LIFE TO SOME CASHLESS ACTIVITIES.
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THEN AGAIN! HAVE A GREAT FRIDAY PEOPLE! (:
