You just can't forget my existence

Beautiful thursday.

2009-11-05T22:26:00.004+08:00

my thursday being sooo beautiful is dependent to my mom's love.
SHE took out everything in my room.
from my clothes wardrobe to my bedsheets to the tiny bit of furnitures in my room, cleaned, changed, hanged nicely, till i got my comfort again in my nest.

sometimes, it's really hard not to think i want to earn so much more and repay my parents back. though loads of bickering and they do not want to support me to Uni, i still think i love them alot. i'm just being me, and i dont know why i am so attached to them. like i've always been independent all my life. i've always acted as if i dont need their care or concern, acted as if i am strong through everything.

but i believe it's a process.
and i believe it'll make me stronger!

i've been looking around in my room and i realized i have everything else then the things people have in their rooms like:

AIRCON? (OMG?! yes i DO NOT HAVE ANY AIRCON in my room)
STUDY TABLE? (yes i told my dad to get rid of it that day that year, for my QUEEN SIZE BED)
TV? (roar, now i cant play xbox in my room, im being greedy again.)

WHATEVERS. i've got my RADIO(:(: AND my LAPPY. WHATSOEVER.
i am so happy about my radio. u do not know how engaged i am with the radio. ask me about the latest hits, u'd lose a million bucks betting on anyone else but me. HAHAHAHAHAHA.

oh oh, i have been buying like 50bucks of magazines a month,
I REALIZED. i am so addicted to reading magazines,
there's like the magazines i organized under each month,
and i realized 50bucks ON AVERAGE.

GOODNESS ME. I AM MAD.

i've got one 2 spoilt phones and one spoilt camera in my room.
i cant imagine how plainly lazy i was just to get it fixed when it WAS still on guarantee. now what? cry looking at them ! what else? lol.

i am freaking still addicted to MAC products.
i tested my love for it again at SEPHORA ion that day.
argh, it's disgusting how i was amazed at the total damage.
and the limited edition MAC brushes, is killing me.

I HAVE TO STOP ALL THESE SHIT IF I WANT TO PAY FOR MY SCHOOL FEES.

MAYBE I SHOULD RE-FOCUS MY LIFE TO SOME CASHLESS ACTIVITIES.
(:

THEN AGAIN! HAVE A GREAT FRIDAY PEOPLE! (:

Slingers' signatures

2009-11-02T21:03:00.002+08:00

I AM GOING UBER HAPPY ABOUT MY LOOT YESTERDAY.

XBOX, SONY DIGITAL CAM, SEE SLINGERS FACE TO FACE, SLINGERS' SIGNATURES, THEIR OWNAGE.

MOODY TONIGHT BECAUSE I CANT HAVE MY BBALL SESSION. ):
alrights, i should sleep early tonight instead.

(: MOTIVATED ONCE AGAIN.

2009-10-26T22:47:00.001+08:00

i was so amazed. (:
motivation, totally makes me crazy.
all i lack is patience.
i need perserverance.

Singapore Slingers

2009-10-11T15:07:00.002+08:00

I am incredibly happy and excited to announce that

I AM A FAN OF SINGAPORE SLINGERS.

I AM SO GOING TO CATCH THEM NEXT WEEK.

I DONT CARE!

EVEN IF IT MEANS GOING ALONE.

today's match super sad, 4pm i cant go.
OUCH ):

*****

AND it was an awesome night,
meeting my juniors eh.
after like 5yrs.
chilling tgt eh and rawking our dancefloor?

:D

Revolutionary

2009-10-07T00:05:00.002+08:00

Today I've finally had my answers to all my worries.
the road ahead may be even harder to pass by.
but wait, i've got my strength and i'm gonna move on.
and yes. it's 12 and i'm gonna go sleep now.

JIAYOU! (:

Bombastic Salad

2009-10-05T22:57:00.002+08:00

I just finished making bombastic salad.
super healthy, cucumbers, green apple, red apple, mushroom and hotdog.
i am going to fight for health!
and this marks the beginning!

and it's 11pm. it's time I AM GOING TO SLEEP NOW.

oh, and i bought pimple stickers for my two humongous stupid red pops.
i hope you go away soon okay.
please LEAVE ME ALONE. MY FACE WAS NEVER LONELY WITHOUT YOU.

and grandma made luohan water for me.
in a bottle, she passed to my dad, still called home to remind me to drink.
and to those who asked me to _____ lesser,
i will do so! (:

I am smiling because I am awaiting what my future brings.

i hope you'd be as hopeful as me ppl! (:

Functioning turning point.

2009-10-05T00:48:00.002+08:00

I want to put you in the middle.
so everything would turn out right.
nothing would be messy.
i want to change for the better for you.

(:

today marks day one of discipline.

jiayou sandra.

Moving on.

2009-10-04T03:31:00.003+08:00

i had been down for the past week and it's really time to wake up from just being upset. instead, i realized the importance of treasure the presence, treasuring the ones around you, treasuring life; that is amazingly something very fragile.
it had made me focus that life beats more than just personal wealth, planning for the future, and whatever typical beings asks for.

it is just simply being happy, focusing on treasuring life and being thankful that every minute, you breathed.

as everyone around moved on, trying to go to where life takes us, please find time together and enjoy the company of those that are placed in your life.

tomorrow can be hard for me to swallow. but i want to be strong.

ON A LIGHTER NOTE,
(: I realized i am happy to have my family and friends with me.
and of course, tmr for basketball is :D for me!
cheers me up instantly. dont know why basketball has such an impact on me.

oh and smile! because yearend is near and christmas is gonna be near!
i love christmas! (: okay, this is random.

OH AND I had a great time at sentosa and numbers that day.
thanks for entering my life, pals. (:

Heartaches.

2009-09-28T19:52:00.003+08:00

You were only only 19, i just saw you on my birthday.
I cried so hard. How could it be, now that you're gone.
I couldnt eat. I couldnt believe. I couldnt imagine.
How fragile life can be.

You went for a better future,
we were anticipitating your return.
and now your return brings agony to us.
We cried till our eyes swell, but you werent here to console us.

My mind paused though my body is still coping well with this fast paced life.
You have been on my mind the entire day.
How do I accept?
It makes it hard to swallow the truth.

Cousin Vincent, you were supposed to be here.
Why'd you go?
Why?

This is for you:
I Really Miss You"

I called you today just to hear you say
You were not around
When the message was through, though I wanted to
I couldn't make a sound
I wanna tell you the things I've seen
I wanna take you to where I've been
And I wish you were here with me
Don't you know

I really miss you - yes I do - yeah
I really miss you
Ohhhh yeah I do

I'm writing to say I had a wonderful day
Hangin' with my friends
But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies
I'm alone again
I wanna tell you the weather is fine
When the night comes around you were on my mind
And I wish you were here with me
Don't you know

I really miss you - yes I do - yeah
I really miss you - yes I do - I miss you
I really miss you
Ohhhh yeah I do

I wanna tell you the things I've seen
I wanna take you to where I've been
And I wish you were here with me
Oh, don't you know

I really miss you - yes I do - yeah
I really miss you - I miss you

I called you today just to hear you say
You were not around
When the message was through, though I wanted to
I couldn't make a sound
I'm writing to say I had a wonderful day
Hangin' with my friends
But the memory dies as the sun reach the skies
I'm alone again

rest in peace.

I think I am still in trauma.

Online shopping is evial.

2009-09-27T15:29:00.002+08:00

ibanking + online shopping = evil.
whatevers, spend lesser next week?
muahahahaha.

if there's only one last reason why you should keep coming back to my blog,
it's that my blog is so updated with the latest hits yo!
woots(:

faith: relax alright. some answers take time to reveal, while some decisions have to be made in time to refrain from regrets. don't worry. in anyway if you happen to bang wall, i'm always here for you! (: remember this, i hope it boost your strength and confidence to take flight to greater heights!

Great Saturday

2009-09-27T06:21:00.002+08:00

Open house, yep. one step closer to what i want.
great! now that i am just one step to what i want.
it feels like a dream.
feels like everything's in control!

went mini-shopping.
hahahaha.
i hope to get my white sneakers tmr!
so that also applies that, SHOPPING WITH GIRLFRIEND IS COMPULSARY TMR!

had a great hang out at aranda's for my friend's bday.
it's great to see how bday girl smiles.
vodka peach sucks. totally yikes.
i am totally random. i am trying to update at such unearthly hour.

so please pardon me.

oh and social house was awesome.
it would be even better when girlfriend's gonna stay with me!

i guess everything's good(:
please don't say there's sadness in my eyes.
when my eyes are so small and cute! HAHAHAHAHA.

Fully scheduled saturday.

2009-09-26T13:09:00.002+08:00

HELLO SATURDAY (:
i've got you fully booked.
i'm now all set to go.

openhouse.
shopping:D:D:D
friend's bday party
crashing bday drinking session
or prolly dancing?

cant catch up with my own pace.
ahahahahaha.

focus(:

White sneakers.

2009-09-24T20:43:00.002+08:00

Cravings for the white sneakers.
sometimes, i just wanna hit the club and wear my favourite sneakers.
just winding up with my girlfriends and dj.
not forgetting the bartender.

today is an awfully stressed up day at work.
the strain at my back and the mental focus can be so hard to take.
it's so early and i am already so tired.

6mugs,1tequila shot, 1 submarine, 3cups of blacklabel w mixer.

how did i get through? hahahahhaa.
I am your superwoman, right faith? hahahaha.

CAN I HEAR? TMR IS FRIDAY(:
i hope i'd be getting an ANNUAL LEAVE OFF NEXT WEEK. PLEASEEEEEE. (:

huixin, next time round, we should try just me and you! (:
sean, hahahaha, left a few more days to tag on at HOME EH. HAHAHAHA. i hear TEKONG CALLING OUT TO YOU! :P

Periodically stagnant.

2009-09-22T19:44:00.003+08:00

You might have already forgo the thought of coming back for more updates.

but yea, being loyal brings you this far.
you get first hand readups.
(:

sometimes working like that makes me feel like workaholic.
fast paced, ability to understand others, ability to intake and digest,
ability to give in for customer service.
to put down ego for infact any unreasonable type.

now that i'm of my age, i realized i cant bear to just slog my life away. just like that, not partaking any kind of further knowledge, just standing back at square one. again and again. trying to? there's so much i want to learn, see, and accomplish.
square one is just insufficient.

and i have never thought like that before. it was previously all about my cosy nest, when all my priorities were just stagnant, small and very much easily contented. but when it hit me that day, my perspective changed. and i just want to thank you again, for leaving me. it made me think of flying out of this nest of mine. without you, my life would be so wasted.

thanks for loving me my girlfriends.
i cant wait to meet you girls soon.

awaiting an evolvement (:

2009-08-24T23:31:00.003+08:00

i had a happy 21st birthday party.
it was awesome.
my loves were there.
family were there.

i am happy that noone asked about him,
i know my parents did alot to make me shun away from anyone saying his name.
but really, it didnt matter.
what matters is that i felt happy every bit on that 3 days and 3 nights!

thanks to all who turned out! (:(:(:
i am happy and thankful for each and every of your presence.

life had changed completely.
and it is going through a crossroad phrase.
being enlightened is so real, my veins are running in impulse.
i can feel my pulse rate, it leads to a blush on my cheeks (:

TOMORROW SHALL BE THE FIRST DAY I ENTER MY VISION,
MAKE DREAMS TURN REALITY.
I WANT TO PROVE MYSELF TO MYSELF.
I AM NOT THE SANDRA I USED TO BE ANYMORE.

I KNOW WHAT I WANT TO ACCOMPLISH,
I MAY BANG MY HEADS ON THE WALLS,
PEOPLE MAY THINK I AM CRAZY,
LIFE MAY GO UPSET,

but i will constantly know, I AM WHO I WANT MYSELF TO BE.
NOT YOU, YOU, NOR YOU to invade.

(:

i will go with my scheduling so very soon.

and i am so craving for partehing with my girlfriend! ):

I CANT BELIEVE, SO NEAR YET SO FAR EH. MY BIG DAY!

2009-08-06T00:36:00.001+08:00

I AM SO HAPPY THAT I'VE RECEIVED MY 2ND PRESSIE:
it's a lovely Soo Kee Necklace (:(:
really a big thank you to ALL MY COLLEAGUES.
and big thanks to Meenana for chipping in so much(:
When i see the pressie, there's a warmth.
A warmth like some combined love, wishes for me!
GREAT THANKS! (:

I JUST REACHED HOME FROM TOWN.
I WAS SOOOOO TIRED.
my eyebags are getting from bad to worse.
but my girlfriend wanna date me, how can i ever reject?
:D

in the end, totally great damage made.
I had a love-at-first-sight TOP, mascara, MAC lipgloss, glue.
OMG. madness.
BUT AM SO HAPPY ABOUT THE LOOTS.

no comments but it feels good. (:

FAITH, I REMEMBER YOUR FTT DATE OKAY.
YOU BETTER REDEEM YOUR VOUCHER FAST OKAY.
BEFORE I GO BACK ON MY WORDS.
AND STRICTLY NO FURTHER EXTENSION OF THIS DEAL ALRDY!
(:

LOVEEEEEE!

I AM SO HIGH. I CANNOT EXPLAIN THIS FEELING.

2009-08-02T11:23:00.000+08:00

briefly update my weekends before i get to my point of getting soooo high!:D:D

friday:
POKER NIGHT.
always fun to chill with friends,
just being happy. i am really happy:)
SWEET.

Saturday:
awesome. shopped with faith at topshop.
got a top, went to shop for shermin's pressie.
headed to Aranda's country club for her 21st bday chalet.
went over for ladies' night at faith's place.
bitchin, nail painting(for both of 'em), rocher beancurd.
talking everything out to one another feels really good.
undeniably THUMBS UP GIRLS! WE SHOULD HAVE MORE OF SUCH SESSIONS!
(:

so after which i reached home and was so stressed over my birthday celebration.
it is 2August and i have no freaking idea where to freaking celebrate.
i did try and error, function halls, chalets and all, was about to cry when i saw all was fully booked till i went back to my DREAM CHALET website PLAINLY TRYING MY LUCK AFTER BEING SOOOO TURNED OFF.

and guess what I SAW?

IF U DONT BOTHER TO CLICK HERE IS WHAT IT SAYS:
"Opening of Aloha Loyang and Aloha Changi Resorts
Aloha Loyang and Aloha Changi will resume normal operations from Friday, 7 Aug 2009. Online bookings for both resorts will be accepted from Sunday, 2 Aug 2009 at 7 am."

TOTALLY TIMING SWEE SWEE.
7AM RIGHT, I was browsing through at 5am okay.
sweeswee 7august reopen when i booking 8/9august?!
HOW EVER CAN ANYONE MANAGE TO BOOK TO BEST CHALET IN TOWN ON PUBLIC HOLIDAY/PH(EVE) in 1 WEEK ADVANCE.

TOTALLY BEYOND MY IMAGINATION OKAY!
i set alarm at 7am, my dad called my uncle who's a teacher (Civil servant)
to help me book my chalet!

AND OMG.
IT'S DONE PEOPLE.

I AM OWNING A 2 DAYS 2 NIGHT CHALET AT ALOHA LOYANG TERRACE!

OW MAH GORD.

AM I FREAKING DREAMING!
THIS IS A SUPER SURPRISE. THIS WARMTH FEELING.
it's really God-given.

I know this might sound sudden ppl, sending out invitation soon!
PLEASE BRING PRESSIES AR. THANK YOU! LOL.

IT'S TONIGHT

2009-07-31T07:05:00.000+08:00

Faith, yesterday i tried the orange apple juice,
really helped leh, last night I DIDN'T COUGHED THAT MUCH.
and i ran 45mins, only COUGHED abit.
SOOOOOOOO HAPPY ABOUT THIS.

*crossed fingers*

MY BLOG SO COOL VIDS,
even i myself wanna keep coming back!
LOL.
that's not the main point.

haha. i am going to FINISH up friday,
the busiest day at work,
with ALL MY MIGHT.
and see my ladies.

aye aye, i am in anticipation sia :)

aye aye, tmr 1st August alrdy SIA. :O
AYE, i am not HINTING ANYTHING CAN.
well, maybe I AM. LOL.

I LOVE HOW THEY DANCE.

2009-07-30T20:23:00.000+08:00

it's thursday, and tmr starts THE WEEKENDS
the temptation to go party is so freaking great.
faith, how how how?

TMR IS OUR LADIES NIGHT.
i am so looking forward to it.
life has never been so great before
love my girls!

we gonna mass SPAM phototaking.
we gonna go havoc just playing and singing.
we gonna just bitch about everything.
we gonna ROCK IT! IT'S LADIES NIGHT! :D

can't believe it's friday tomorrow alrdy,
and my birthday celebration have yet to decide!
goodness me. Sandra, why are you so fickle minded.
i guess it just means i am have great expectations.

did i not say,
I am currently very into stylish stuffs.
i don't know why. my eyes likes style.
not forgetting EYE CANDIES.

but i guess my eye candies now currently still blank.
(i guess only faith understands)
but nvm, it's ONLY RIGHTFUL TO WAIT :D
WOOTS!

recently, my mind has loads of plans.
these plans of my future is so strong.
it's hard to share it with anyone.
it's beyond normal mentality.

and prolly anyone could just bring me down.
but you know, like i said so many times.
MY VALUE ONLY INCREASES, NEVER GOES DOWN.
so just DONT bother.

:)

IF YOU REALLY WANT TO MAKE ME HAPPY FOR MY BIRTHDAY.
PLEASE SEE: I LOVE SURPRISES. NOTHING BEATS SURPRISES.

MAKE ME SO SURPRISED THAT I CRY. I WILL ~~FUCKING~~ LOVE YOU.

am i anticipating my birthday?
YES I SO AM.

but i know after this birthday, my age stops here.
:D

IF YOU THINK YOU CAN DANCE, SHOW ME WHAT YOU'VE GOT.
I MAY HAVE JUST GONE BONKERS FOR YOU! LOL?

POSITIVE FEEDBACKS.

2009-07-26T23:07:00.000+08:00

it is amazing how in only a month,
i received all positive feedbacks to the right decision.
i cannot imagine NONE of the feedbacks is to prove wrong move.
and i am glad.

FRIDAY-
MADLY CRAZILY SELF-CONTROLLED.
FRIDAY NIGHT AT HOME SIA.
AMAZING.

SATURDAY-
worked 1/2day with my JENNIE
dio pian by my FAITH after shopping.
went to celebrate MEENA's bday in advance at JUMBO clarke quay.
had drinks at clarke quay.
great poker night.

SUNDAY-
woke up early
thanks sean for free harry porter tix!
shopped madly at orchard.
bought 2 tops.
bought Versace's perfume.
but madly in love with Gucci's ENVY ME.
so now damn pekcek. lol.
gave home allowance so now damn poor.

Things to do!
.decide on birthday celebration
.save save save for faith's hardcore parteh, beauty, shopping plans.
.exercise, eat healthy.
.think what to wear for my bday :D
.stop coughing by this week
.buy contact lens.

though hugging may be addictive and may be habitual.
it is rightful to wait for the perfect hug.

I CANT IMAGINE MYSELF SMILING TO MY COMPUTER SCREEN.

2009-07-22T19:17:00.002+08:00

OMG. THE CHARISMATIC GROUP, DBSK, IS MAKING ME CRAZY.

reached home, bathed, had dinner,
sitting infront of my comp WATCHING THEM DANCE.
FREAKING MAKE ME SO HAPPPPPPYYYYYYYYYYYYYY.
THEY LOOK SO FREAKING GOOD.

*MELTS* till there is no more sandra.

OMGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGGG!
I THINK I AM PERVERTIC.
I THINK MY HEART IS SO STOLEN. SHIT.

TUESDAYYYYY (:

2009-07-21T07:28:00.002+08:00

it's tuesday blues for me.
woke up today feeling better,
but still coughing, medicine making me slighhtly drowsy.
when days like this, meeting up can bring me a long way.

so i am glad to catch up with you today.
=)

oh and faith, i cant wait for weekends while we can meet again!
so lonnnnnggggg. dont like to be sick =(
and the truth is i still miss ashley though she is
mass-bf-ing throughout. boooo!

photos will be uploading soon! :D

sometimes all we need is a hug,
and all we need is to wait for the actual one.
not just anyone to make pain go away:)
i am a good friend, i'd stand by you!

FREE HUGS!

HOW HANDSOME CAN A GUY BE?

2009-07-18T20:20:00.002+08:00

this is my kind of handsome.

totally smitten!

SANDRA IS SO GONNA BE GROUNDED =(

2009-07-15T18:05:00.006+08:00

It was just a mere 37.7 ytd morning before i went for work.
somehow i felt nauseous, throbbing pain over my head like accupunctures,
down my back, back of my ears, it's so disgusting the feeling is just argh.
went to see staff clinic and i ate the MEDICINES 3 TIMES YTD THINKING I'D BE FINE TODAY.

BUT HOW SCARY WAS IT?
At 4am, my whole head was burning, i cant sleep,
i yelled for mummy when i checked my temperature,
it was 39.1. I was panicky, i didn't wanna worry her,

but i still did it anyway.

I really love mummy.
she love to nag , she was nagging at me the whole lot,
but she was sponging me, my whole body, though i screamed discomfort,
she just hushed me, and quickly cooked me barley =(

it was like nightmare when i woke up this morning,
superwoman Sandra still has her plight.
this time, cannot deny. my body punished me.
to summarize how serious it was,

i went to see doctor this morning,
and i got MADLY 3 DAYS OF MC.

what isit that doctor has to give me 3days MC?
doctor asks me to be prepared that the sudden shot of fever may come back anytime.
daddy called back and started nagging again.
yes, this time, serves me right =(

daddy asks me go for blood test,
he says i keep having falling ill,
and my immunity didn't go stronger.
but instead worse. :(

GOODNESS ME.

but nvm,
i've got a HAPPY SURPRISE.

=)

TODAY I GOT MY FIRST BIRTHDAY PRESSIE ALRDY.
josh is so nice to come all the way to my hse area cos he know im sickly dying,
to pass me my 20+ days early birthday present.
i cant imagine and never expected him to get me this.

i have been waiting sooooo long for this,
and to save to get this,
is like the last thing i could think of,
because i dont know, i simply cant think of getting it with my pathetic pay.

but he got it for me!

it's really embarrassing to accept,
but he told me to be a fair lady and accept it with a thank you.
so i did.

really thank you, besides thank you, i ran outta words to say anything.
i know there's some voucher thing, but using the voucher for my pressie is already like a choice to getting something for yourself right.
besides it's not the cost that matters, it's really the thoughts that counts.

mine's the one in REDDDD. =))

yippie!

oh oh, and i have overdue pics..

PEOPLE are the reason why i keep hanging on.
loveeee them. alot.

=)

I may ground myself this weekend. =(

BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!

2009-07-14T07:37:00.000+08:00

List will be up very soon upon confirmation:)

i am so happy about my birthday celebration.
BUT WAIT, my temperature is now 37.7.
i have headaches when i turn my head.
shit, i NEED PANADOLS.

jiayou SANDRA. it's TUUUUEEEESDAY LE.
friday gonna party de, please dont fall ill on me, my body.
talking about partying, last weekend damn paiseh.
ARGH. talking about puking. argh.

i still need to do some preparations for my birthday de!
gimme my sweet 21.

OH AND TO MY LADIES I AM INVITING.
bring along YOUR GLOSSY LIPS,
ENTRANCE TO MY PARTY IS THY KISS.
CANNOT SIAM AR :) LOVEEEE!

HAPPENING WEEKEND.

2009-07-12T20:53:00.000+08:00

friday night went to buy my jacket.
got the black one instead.
:) happy happy.
use my money buy something i like feels good.

WELL, PRESENTS ARE LOVEEEEE. :)
if u wanna make my day.
present a surprise to me, be it small or big.
i will loveeee you deep deep. lol.

it was great dinner with sean, wow the feeling of seeing someone whom u lost contact with for 9 years, is SOOOOOO goooood.
it's like finding gold which u've burried long ago.
and gosh, I AM SOOOOOOOoo happy about it.

oh yes i realized i din take any photos of my hot dates.
roar.

anyway, joshua is out at malacca, really wanna say thanks for rmbing me though he's away.
i am blessed to know yoou. see you soon k!!

and and my SS2 is super angry with me, because i din reply his sms.
SORRRRRRRRY. SS2, SEE, I SAID SORRY PUBLICLY ON MY BLOG ALRDY!!
our friendship i bet is much of prior than an sms right? c`mon. :)

FREAGGIN HAPPY LAST NIGHT.
the DND was a blast. everyone was happy!
swissotel was grand, gurmit singh was superb.
food was great, AND OBVIOUSLY PEOPLE ARE FUNNNNNNN!

then went to butterfac at 11pm.
AWESOME. no cute guys only got cute bartender. LOL.
zzz. BUMPPPPPPP! :)
yea, i guessed so too.
GOT FREAKING WASTED! WASTED! WASTED! FIRST TIME EVER. ARGH.

i didn't freaggin sleep till now.
i am soooooooooooo tired.
oh, and i was glad i had my yummy pizza hut meal treat:)

life will nv be the same agn.
all i wish is to not change who i am.

IT'S THURSDAY, YEA BABY!

2009-07-09T21:48:00.001+08:00

I know yes yes I know how can I don't put more photos of myself right? YESSSS I NOEEEEEE.

muahahaha.

oh wait lemme share with you sth i LOVEEEEEE.
I had waffle for lunch today.
it's not up to my standard.
to think tt i think abt it throughout the night!!

another love was my parents buying durian back!
DARK YELLOW FLESHY DURIANS ARE LOVEEEEEEE.
the pungent aroma is just addictive :)

THE MOON IS SO ROUND AND GOLDEN, OH SO ROMANTIC NIGHT,
yawn, im so gonna go sleep la. hahahahaha. lemme dream of my prince charming.
sometimes, life is all about choices.
:)

i wanna show something but im afraid it might terrify people off,
so i did not take photos of my pierre cardin bra sets. LOL?
one in hot pink zebra stripes, and another in purple black lacey design.
seriously love at first sight. it's so gorgeous, i have to buy it.

mom say:
"wear inside nice nice will feel more confident de ma"
sweeeeet! love my mom.
love it when my parents treat me like a grown up!
share with me thoughts and such. cant imagine it's so fast, I AM AN ADULT TO BE.

I HOPE MY JULY'S PAY GOT SOME TINY BONUS.
abit abit for me to have a happier bday is good le! :D

OH AND PEOPLE!! WATCH OUT FOR IM GONNA HAVE A NICE PARTY OUT AT A CLUB OR WHAT.
IT WILL BE FUN TO HAVE MY LOVELIES AROUND! ARE YOU READY?? :D

IT'S A MONTH EXACTLY FOR A COUNTDOWN. PREPARED MY PRESSIE?!
I LOVE PRESENTS SO YOU BETTER DONT LET ME DOWN AR.
I JUST DONT CARE. U HAVE ONE MONTH TO SAVE UP! LOL?!

waittttt,
here's a little poser girl for you on this lovely thursday!:)

naturally yours faithfully:)

HAVE A LOVELY WEEKENDS! I AM SO GONNNNNAAAAAA:D

2009-07-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

a loonnnnnnng day from work today! :D
but everyday now working is not as dreading la.
it's like im glad i have my career!
when i play and all, i know i play hard and work hard!

oh man, dont i sound like a manly guy?

i may not be expressive about my appreciation
but thanks for the lozenges.
it really helped me.
i noe noone like my sexy voice.

AND I SURE DONT WANNA PARTY WITH MY EWWWW VOICE!
LOLS?
=) SMILES TO U. thanks hor!!

and also, i dono how life is so weird!
after 10 yrs my life streamed down to meeting my long lost tuition mate again!!
unbelievableeee.
see you soon eh!

i love life because I AM SHOWERED WITH LOVE.
LOVEEES!!

and gonna hit da club with ASHLEY AND FAITH AND THE REST (which i dono who yet?)
ON SATURDAY. S.A.T.U.R.D.A.Y IS LIKE 3 DAYS TIME.
That's what my baby faith newly hit chick told me.
she says she love me DEEP DEEP! her words just make me smile long time.

WONDERING AM I REALLY IN LOVE WITH HER. AWWWW.

p.s: and girl i know u're watching me. i am not stealing anything tt's yours. but wait a minute, is he yours? =)

p.p.s: you can be my friend, you dont have to think of me as your rivalry. please! =)

AND I PROMISED MYSELF TO GET THAT JACKET I SAW. I AIN'T GONNA TURN U DOWN ANYMORE. I NEED YOU ON ME, I SAW U AT THE WINDOW, THIS FRIDAY, IM SO GONNA BUY U. I DON'T NOE HOW MUCH U COST. BUT U'RE MINE, EVEN FOR NOW. LOVE, YOUR OWNER-TO-BE. LOL!

never sick of my colourful life.

2009-07-07T20:49:00.000+08:00

oh yea, it's very soon till i get my pay.
i cant wait to get everything i want now that i own my own expenses only.
sweeeee ar. brainlessly cabbing around, buying stuffs, shopping, all would just be as fun but my money like forever still got.

SO MUCH DIFFERENCE EH.

i am looking forward to friday. gonna hit the clubs, heart's content.
I SOOOOoooo need my voice back, dowan this sexy voice le laaaaaa.
hahahahaha.
i wan my sweet sweet voice to deh people.

LOL? so i can whine and be happy when ppl get irritated. MUAHAHAHA.

tmr i got someone booked me for dinner,
but my bachelorette and ashhy asked me to hop over.
zzz. this can be a tough decision. muahahahaha.

i miss my jamie, so much:(

oh, i'm seeking dancing teachers, private or any good training schools,
please recommend okays! big ~~kisses~~ thank you to recommendations okay! hahahaha.

oh and saturday's DND, wear what huh? should i go by right, or by left? MUAHAHAHA.

I am having an illness, it is NARCISSISM.

2009-07-06T23:27:00.000+08:00

today im feeling entirely good with my night out with joshua.
i can wear what ever i love to wear, i can just sit down cig it, chill and enjoy human seeing.

WHICH I NEVER EXPECTED WOULD BE SO COOL.

we can like just sit there and chill at just a part of orchard and just BE HAPPY.
can just talk like everything is funny because of his joker pattern.

LOLOL.

and i dont understand why JOSHUA WHY U THINK THAT JAZZ AND HIPHOP MUSIC ARE SEXY WHEN U HEAR THEM? i never thought sexy would be a word for these genres. lolol.

im really glad to have such an ego friend like you. so we can like play punk tgt just 'disiaoing' other people.

DAD AND MOM ARE SOOOOO NICE. THEY ASK ME TO GO OUT MORE OFTEN AND MEET NICE GUYS! LOL. I NEVER THOUGHT ONE FINE DAY MY LOVELY PARENTS WOULD SAY THIS TO ME, BUT IT HAPPENED!

SWEET 21!! :D

and daddy was telling me to continue my driving liscense, and i was thinking.. SO I COULD PIMP THAT VAN TO MY HOT PINK ONE. SWEE AR.

Certified Hippie lippie? LOLOLOL.
huh. josh? passed anot me?
LOLOL.

I NEVER HAVE TO LIE WHERE I AM GOING OR WHATSOEVER. because mummy and daddy say they loveee me and would want me to be happy! i am so freaking touched.

and one of the best things happened. early morning and i was in my blue surgical mask, i saw mah SISTER came outta her office and piak a NICE ORANGE VITAMIN C FOR ME! CHEWABLE SOMEMORE LEH.

Soooooooo touched can. how many lovely things i received just in 5 days alrdy? my life is soooo much better now, i cant imagine how blinded i was. to think i keep thinking i have to change to be happy.

guess what?

PEOPLE LOVE ME THOUGH I AM SICK, PEOPLE LOVE ME THOUGH I WEAR JUST WHAT I THINK IS COOL. PEOPLE LOVE ME JUST BECAUSE I LOVE MYSELF MORE.

I am so into myself. i guess the word is NARCISSISM.

totally in self LOVEEEE.

2009-07-05T23:11:00.000+08:00

Thanks josh for this moisturizer!! hehe. thanks for being there for me these days, will put up your pics very soon okay!

I'm glad to have SS2 aka Xinglong accompany me today man! thanks for trying your best to make me laugh also.

when i'm at my most down then i can see who can help me up. i was blinded and couldnt see and didn't manage to catch lovely friends to make them stay with me. but how sweet can it be, i have mr.smiley, i have moisturizer for my rotting finger, gastric tablets, vitamin Cs, i have free cheeseburgers, mass spamming of lovely greetings to ask me stay strong and that they're just a call away.

what more do i need? =) thanks you guys for everything! really.

OH AND GUESS WHAT? LOOK AT MEEEE, I AM SO CUTE IN THOSE PICTURES LIKE SERIOUSLY RIGHT?!!?!?